At times, I’ve wanted to throw in the towel on my recovery. It seemed far too impossible, not only to avoid temptation but to pursue righteousness. Though the life of slavery/addiction I once knew beckons, Jesus invites me to dine at His table and to feast on His word.
Read MoreThough I find it easy to bleed out parts of my story as an offering of what Jesus is doing in my life, there are chapters seemingly unmentionable. I struggle with communicating the periodical brokenness I feel around things related to physical intimacy. Like many children, I grew up with little to no supervision. Subsequently, much of my youth was spent trying to gain the respect of older kids. It was there, a teenager 7 years my senior (I was nine) held me down for three long years…
Read MoreI hate admitting negligence towards my dogs because I like to think I would never cause them harm. However, in drug addiction, I was not only negligent, but downright neglectful. Even though it wasn’t intentional, using made me unavailable to many of life’s demands. Bills went unpaid. I failed to show up to functions requiring my presence. I didn’t feed my animals, let alone myself…
Read MoreIt took a year for me to get de-programmed. Although I am grateful for the structure and wisdom programs provided me, they run in opposition to Gospel Truth. However, I still sometimes frequent their rooms. Not because I need to attend for sobrietys sake, but….
Read MoreWe got plugged in. We put down roots. We started serving. We got mentors. Then, I relapsed on methamphetamine. Like pennies on a funnel shoot, it was the beginning of a slow and brutal spiral out of control. There are several contributing factors leading to my decision use drugs, however they are all an exaltation of things above Jesus. Trusting in drugs, alcohol, and pornography I pushed Jesus aside. Even though stress, anxiety, abuse, and trauma have to bow to the name of Jesus, I did not.
Read MoreThough she did not do everything right, she did the right thing by showing up. She helped me when I asked and offered when I didn’t. Without knowing if I would ever recover, she put her dreams and aspirations on pause. She said yes to our marriage, when she could have very well said no. With biblical grounds for termination, she could have walked away…
Read MoreThough it was hard expressing the nature and severity of my spiritual biopsychosocial sickness, I mustered up the courage to take it one day at a time. It just happened this particular day looked like being honest with a potential employer.
Read MoreAs my grandma used to say, “Running with the wrong crowd gets you nowhere.” Though drugs took me somewhere, eventually it was nowhere I wanted to be. For me, change looked like surrender. Once I admitted…
Read MoreIf only I could be half as good as his mullet was long, surely I would make it. But as many of us know, sometimes the things we want, turn out to be things we don’t. I found out greatness has a price.
Read MoreSo, when I see this video what sticks out to me are the things I never wanted you to see.
Read MoreIf rats can’t breathe at higher altitudes, we shouldn’t bother with their presence as we ascend into the clouds - A message from our dear friend Chase Arrington about landing where your looking.
Read MoreI am grateful for the people who never gave up on me, even though I did at one point…
Read MorePart of how the Lord free’d me from 20 + years of addictions!
Read More"There's something wrong with me. This isn't normal, right? I guess I just need to pray more or have more faith. I don't know. Maybe I'm just broken. I'm sorry to bother you with this. I probably sound so stupid."
Those are, loosely, the words I recall a young lady saying to me over the phone. I could hear it in her voice. She didn't actually believe the words that were coming out of her mouth. She was buying into a lie.
Read MoreThis is my testimony of how Jesus Christ set me free of the enslaving bondage of sin via its many manifestations throughout my life; pornography, alcohol, drugs, and many other idols.
Read MoreYou know how we tend to say, "Well, it can't get any worse" and then, it gets worse? June 12, 2017 - it got worse. That was the day I found out my husband of 2.5 years was experiencing drug addiction.
Read MoreI didn't hold back my anger or my tongue.
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